This is a song about why it sucks to be a nice person. Good fails, evil triumphs, all that jazz. I think it's one of my best lyrics, honestly. The instrumental break features Bebot, which is the coolest and cutest item in the iTunes App Store. I expect you'll hear him in a lot of recordings from now on.
Written 25, 28 August 2005.
lyrics
I don't want to be
the one you're always cursing
I don't want to be
the one you cast aside
now I understand that
I may not come first, but
I still don't know why
no I still don't know why
I'm always friendly
I never am rude
my jokes are simply silly
and never are crude
I'm aware of the feelings
of everyone in the room
I try to be the best man
but I guess I'll never be a groom
I don't want to be
a less than standard person
I don't want to be
looking from the outside
I wonder why you to me
are someone who brings yearning
I have got to know why
oh I have got to know why
Now I can win you
I know that this will work
all I have to do
is act like a total jerk
Now I want to be
the one you're always cursing
Now I want to be
always on your mind
I hope that I can be
your most thought-of person, because
now I can see why
now I can see why
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